It’s been yet another failed attempt in trying to get that coveted regular sleep schedule for Kristina.

Is this supposed to be a natural thing in college or at least for Senior Year? Because ever since this semester has started I haven’t honestly gotten a solid night of sleep. Actually I lied, the last time I slept properly in one night was when I was I’m Toronto and that was over two months ago.

It makes no sense to me. Sleep has just become one of those elusive pipe dreams that one could only hope to get a glimpse at. I can pass out for hours at a time, sure. But a solid good night’s sleep? Haven’t see that bad boy in months, folks.

This was already a thing before everything got stressful and weird with Senior year and the occasional new challenge brought on by extra responsibilities. I’d be inclined to say it’s because I’m sick but that’s a pitiful excuse being that I’ve only been sick since Monday ish.

I really miss those days that I would actually like go to bed and sleep 7 hours straight. Hell back in freshman year, I’d go to bed at 10pm. Now I’m lucky if I’m back in my apartment by 11pm on a good day. It’s concerning how I’m able to function on such low levels of sleep. I can still do my work and be efficient throughout my various daily tasks, it’s just I know that I should be sleeping better to help provide fuel for the metaphorical fire.

Maybe once I go to India that drastic time change and jet lag might rebalance the unnatural balance of my sleep cycle. But for now all I can do is keep dreaming about having a chance to dream at night.