There’s that saying about how the end justifies the means and if you told me that in the middle of me being awake for 24 hours I would have probably asked you to kinda relocate to anywhere but where I was if you wanted to keep your limbs. Now that I’ve got more sleep somewhere that wasn’t the most uncomfortable chairs on campus, I can reevaluate that expression and not be as threatening as I was a couple of hours ago.

I was in the middle of an absurd work day, but as cranky as I was during the entire thing. I loved it. I love being busy I think the worst part was honestly just waiting so I could what I needed to. Yes there was still a point where I just needed to pass out after doing all the technological mumbo-jumbo I needed for today, but I honestly love working on things I care about.

There was a significant amount of work that just went into the project I’m finishing up. I’m hoping it uploads to my YouTube by tonight so I can share it with the world, but I was so happy to do all the work I did. I like going the extra mile when it’s about something I care so much about. I treat so much of my work like this. Where I can complain all I want but there’s just some weird rush I always get whenever I’m working on a project. It’s just like how people go on runs and their body just knows exactly what to do after a while of muscle memory. When my mind gets that right push with the right amount of passion and motivation beyond a deadline, I just lose myself in the art of whatever task is at hand.

I mean I should be asleep but I just finished writing a recap for my favorite webseries. No one asked me to do those recaps and after all the hours I pushed myself to get through, no one would be disappointed if I chose to rest and try to tackle it tomorrow. I enjoy what I do and I’m really happy how I’m making more peace with my decision to do what makes me happy. These things don’t feel like real work because I just lose myself just like how a musician gets consumed by the music or how the artist gets taken away by their muse.

I may not be an actual athlete but I do take care to exercise my brain to keep myself in top shape as well as keep this regular influx of happiness in my art in my every day schedule. Sure, vlogging is the next challenge since I’ve just found my camera charger and a decent memory card. But a little bit of exasperation and panic keeps my heart going instead of regular cardio.

For now, I’m just gonna keep hoping that video uploaded properly and retire for the evening before my early morning drive to queens. Keep your eyes open for hopefully the start of my vlogs after this holiday. Til then, my bed calls.