It’s honest to God amazing how off far from the right track some people can be. This is going to be different from my usual nonsense because this rant just needs to happen.

Sure I can blame the years of being a New Yorker and developing a people watching game pretty freaking strong BUT it honestly baffles me how people who are expected to be a grown adult miss on major social cues. Also, how in the hell do people miss, I don’t know, general human decency to others?

I understand some people’s privilege game so strong they don’t understand what it means to be anything other than okay with their current life situation, but it’s irritating to see how ignorant and rude people just because. A person isn’t just like a plate of jello. What you see on the outside is exactly what you’d expect on the inside. A person is more developed than that. A person is like a grandfather clock. A beautiful piece of work that serves a purpose while being composed of so many other little bits that make it work.

Where is this analogy going? I have no clue.

But the point is,  people are so much more than what you might see in passing. When you see people visibly becoming more and more agitated or uncomfortable and you decide to keep going, that’s just a load of nonsense. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to know when people aren’t happy or uncomfortable with where a conversation is going. It’s probably more irritating to me when I know some people who miss these social cues are trying to get a future where communication, including picking up cues, is crucial to success.

When it gets down to it, I think I’m just more or less infuriated with this entire debacle for the fact of how much I put other people before myself. I may pretend to be a sarcastic douche, but I’m just a very sensitive little dweeb. And when it comes to my friends, I am fiercely protective of making sure they’re okay. Drunk, sick, busy. I don’t care. My responsibility as a friend or just a decent human being will always bring me to the side of anyone who needs someone.

For the most part, I might be entirely wrong with how much I put my efforts in taking care of others. I could be totally wrong about this but I honestly feel like the world deserves even more from me. I was such a bad young person and I’ll always regret that. I mean yes, it was crucial in playing a part in the confused dork I have become comfortable with today but I absolutely hate seeing how toxic of a person I was. I guess it’s a penance to the world that I’ll always do my best to make sure that those I’m fond of know that someone cares. The world is such a crappy place sometimes, the least I could do is try to make a difference in one person’s life or something. I doubt that I’ll be decent enough to make a huge difference in the world that people will remember me in history, but the least I can do is try to help someone get through their day even if my own is imploding and dragging me deeper than the ocean’s trenches.

But I just can’t accept the idea that the world is so desensitized to others that even the obvious social cues of discomfort are blatantly ignored by others. This world is pretty tough and no one gets out of it alive. The least we could do is try to make the ride decently interesting without inflicting surprising plot twists to people who aren’t having the best of times.